"Are you alright?" I would would slap on the biggest smile I had and respond

 

with,  "Of course, silly!" even though it felt like the whole world was out to get

 

me.  Maybe it was my own fault. Maybe, just maybe, I did it on purpose.

 

Perhaps I pushed everyone away and isolated myself. But, I wanted someone

 

to see past the false smiles and cheerful comments. I wanted someone to see

 

me as just Rikku, not as"Yunie's Perky Cousin" or "The Al Bhed Sunshine" or

 

"Cid's Daughter." I wanted someone who could protect me, and care about

 

me. Someone who didn't care what other people thought of us, enough to

 

walk away from their life they had, so we could be together. Yunie had Tidus.

 

LeBlanc had Nooj. Paine had Baralai. Lulu had Wakka. Everyone else had

 

their own special someone. I thought I was in love with Tidus for a while, but

 

it was just a little crush, and anyways, he belonged to Yunie. Why couldn't I

 

have someone? I wanted to find a person who makes me happy, and sees

 

what I really am feeling. Someone who sees who I truly am. I wanted someone

 

of my very own. I wanted someone to look out for me, like I would them. I

 

just wanted someone to love, and be loved in return. I wanted someone to

 

just......care. I want my own protector. I want him to tell me that he loves me,

 

and I want him to truly mean it, not to throw around the sacred phrase like it

 

was nothing. He's out there, somewhere. He may not know I exist but I'll find

 

him. He might be looking for me too. Even though I'm just a girl, I'm ready to

 

find my special someone. I'll wait until the ends of time until I find him. I know

 

I'll find him. Someday.

 

~~Owari~~